Breakups- fuckups-ending things- just plain.. I'm done.
They are filled with a wrenching pain.
You cry until you feel your eyes burning continuing to cry uncontrollably.
You didn't have a single damn choice in this matter.
And you already looked pathetic showing up on his doorstep begging for an explanation.
At this moment though every explanation is horrible because all you want to hear is "I'm sorry i screwed up I want you in my life forever".
You just want what you've had - you don't want to leave your comfort zone- him.
Then again you still don't have a single damn choice because begging only works so much, one can't force love and the many things needed to keep the love alive.
Love takes commitment, honesty,selflessness, courage, bravery, and communication.
And all this negativity needs to just be washed away.
Painlessly forgotten about and wiped away. I want a life filled of happiness with just myself, family or maybe when the right time comes someone who not only loves me for me but continues to love and try every single damn day .
After the first tidal wave things are a piece of cake. You learn quickly to accept help from loved ones and to move forward.
